Here we are, my third attempt at keeping a blog. My babies are growing, my life is constantly in fast-forward and I have no time to collect my thoughts, never mind document our life in any sort of memorble fashion. So here I am. In the past, when considering a blog, I thought, 'but who will read it'? and it inevitably failed. This little blog is already off to a better, more hopeful start, because I am looking at this space to serve as a time capsule for me and my family. If someone else happens to stumble upon us (hi there, and welcome!), the more the merrier, but really this is a space for me to process and write and remember.
Perhaps I will make a new years resolution, promising to blog once a week. That would be nice. I am starting this blog on December 8th, 2015. Enough time to write a few times, so that if that resolution comes to fruition, it is established enough to encourage me.
So here goes.
I am Jean, wife to K and mother to three beautiful children: N, 4.2; M, 2.4; and sweet little E, 7.5 months. I am a stay at home mom, and we live in a (nearly) 200 year old home, in a suburb of Boston. Staying home, with not much family and no friends nearby, is more difficult I could have ever dreamed. Sometimes the days (and the fights, oh the brotherly fighting!) pile up and it is so easy to focus on the difficulties. And then I stop, and breathe, and N says something outlandish and I burst out laughing and everything swims into focus and I remember, this is the life I chose. This is the life I fought for. Why am I focusing on how difficult it is, and allowing the little annoyances get to me, when I can stop and breathe them in? They are only little for a moment. And instantly my smile comes more quickly and my laugh is lighter and longer. My hope for 2016 is to stay focused on appreciating our blessed life, and continue to find joy in the chaos, that inevitably comes with having so many little ones.
And breathe them in. Every day.
